just one job

Maruti, Infosys, Kukuku or is it Kukoku..err..I guess its kukuko. Well, who cares..people just want a job. The above mentioned names are companies which have visited my college for the placements thus far. Boy!!..people are actually getting despos..for a job, I mean to say(except for some carefree creatures like P.J).
Anyways..I was wondering and pondering over the reasons, as to why we need a job. Listing down some(refraining from the usual stuff):

1. No clue about the future. With a job in hand, you would at least have one. So what, if it is bleak!!
2. Enough of college life. Its time to get pro. So what, if being a pro would make you a self centered, inhuman and a shrewd person.
3. Enough of living on parents salary. So what, if your parents are super rich who can feed you throughout your life.
4. Move away from parents, friends, yourself. So what, if the last time you went away from home for a week..you broke down the very next day.
5. Want a change. So what, if the very same change is going to bug you down after just few months.
6. Want to be with new set of people. So what, if those very new faces would be first one to back stab you at you every step.

Well I any day and any time would fall in to the first category..going the way the flow of the river is taking me to. Making least bit of any effort, what-so-ever to change its direction..
Which category do you fall into? or did I miss out on your kind.
Suggestions are more than invited.. =)

P.S. People seeking a job presently, take this bit of free advice..stay away from this post ;).

beginning of an end or an end to a beginning?

Why we are sceptical and uncertain towards any change that crops up in our life? Wouldn't it be too boring if everything was repetitive and monotonous; meeting the same set of faces daily, going to the same place to study/work, having the same plain yellow dal for dinner. Well, don't know about others, but for me a change after every short period of while is a must. But that is a different thing that I am the first one to break down when they actually knock at my door ;).

So, after spending 4 long years (19% of my life; please do not take me as a nerd..was just emphasizing the time I had depleted) doing B.Tech, I am desperately looking forward to welcome a change. One main reason being that I do not see myself evolving further (so that means that the role of college life is over..saturated..exhausted, it made me what I am today). Further avenues untouched, unexplored, unimagined await me, bait me. This by no mean means, that I wouldn't miss my college. It was full of fun, bonding, bunking, photo shoots, pleads for phokat ki attendance, movies, momos, cuppas, photostats, arguments, clashes, bitching( girls and bitching go hand in hand. 60 girls, 120 hands..now imagine the level and amount of bitching). Though I wish it was co-ed (neighbouring college crowd made the situation even worse =P).

It took me a good amount of time to come to the terms of the change when the school life ended, hope things do not repeat themselves this time. Hope I don't get lost when it actually ends, and go into seclusion.

4 amazing years they were after all =).

when you love someone...

"I loved you. It was not a weight you must carry around. I loved you. It was not a box that holds you in. I loved you. It was not a standard you have to bear. I loved you. It was not a sacrifice I make. I loved you. It was not a pedestal you are frozen upon. I loved you. It was not an expectation of perfection. I loved you. It was not my life's whole purpose (or your's). I loved you. It was not to make you change. I loved you. It was not even to make you love me. I just loved you & will always do that as it is just the most purest n sacred form of relationship for me that is beyond evryone's sagacity & even yours.

But see the irony you made it a crime for me for which I have been forced to repent time n again but i guess now I am tired of repenting & suffering, so I am just simply giving it up...:)"

This bit of piece has been penned down by my friend P.J (has become an amazing one of late). And the occasion was, her boy friend ditching her. Arnt guys sick and tired of doing that over and over again, of committing then backing out?

"She wants to believe his every word, his assurance that he would never leave her, he would be her strength in intricate times ..she hesitates, for the fear that all these words might not be true. But she loves that person, and she is bound to trust him. And when her belief gets stronger, he aint there =) ..long gone.."

Well thought of adding this, coz just felt like..or rather could relate to it..identify with it =) =)

marching ahead :)

I'm happy..
I feel like flying high..
there is not even a remorse of sigh..
shoved aside your deep carved memories,
that were plaguing the soul of mine..
resting peacefully in a graveyard they now lie

spring

gone are the days when we had nothing to talk
gone are the days when we were shadows apart
gone are the days when silence wasn't peace
here we are turning to a new leaf

Crib till it rips you apart!!

I'm sad and I'm cribbing for the current state of my life. The other day I was talking to my friend & he was cribbing about what life has given him. Its of the most common notion that we all go through when we are going through a tough phase or should I say cant handle the situation anymore!!Why is it that, when things start falling flat on their face, we start cribbing and dismissing them as the most horrible thing to ever have happened to us?

When the going gets tough most of resort to, the old age formula of cribbing and I'm no different.

Questions of all sort that are responsible for the current state of one's life, start making their presence felt. How-so-ever we might dislike people for cribbing, about their bosses not giving them an off, about how their parents would never understand that they have grown up to be on their own, about how their ex's were unfaithful to them and so-on and so-forth, the fact would remain that we are never content with what our past has given us, how our present is shaping up and what our future will hold (how can we be optimistic and look ahead to a happier life, when our past was a pain in the ass and the present is a pain in..ah whatever).

In spite of being surrounded by people who never fail at an opportunity to get envious of people succeeding at their workplace (mind you, I am not cribbing about people around me), I have always failed to understand that what is it that makes a person so bloody full of hatred for others. High time we get out of the mentality of the 'Grass being greener on the other side'. We all fail in exams, job interviews, meeting expectations, love..whatever..but the true essence of anything that comes after that failure cannot be surpassed had you got that thing in the very first place. And remember that 'It happens to the best of Us'. So what if you were lucky at the second go!!!

Defying certainity..defying death

Dream 1: Down went the hill. So steeper and steeper i fell, from a monstrous, sturdy mountain into a dark gloomy pitfall. And there i met death. I embraced it with grace, as if this what i had always wanted but yet was ever so reclusive to accept it.

Dream 2: Catch me if you can. I am running, running as fast as i could. My feet trying to catch the tick tock pace of my heart. If not by being murdered, i would actually die of a heart attack. I am running out of breath..Huh..Huh.Oh God, i am hoping that it is a dream, a bad dream...

Dream 3: A Visit to a Doctor. I haven't been feeling good at all. Rightfully so, i paid a visit to the doc. He diagnoses me with a terminal disease. Echoes of crying, sobbing and grief fills the atmosphere with utmost disgust.

Present: Death, hot topic of atonement for my dreams these days. By far, the most dreaded and the certain aspect of our lives, but we still cant come to the terms that this world can live without us. Why are jitters sent down the spine, even at the mention of this word? Is life that big a thing? Can it be called a thing? Is it the only and the last chance that we get to live? What if there is yet another life after death? How would i live there without my close ones? Would that mean I would die all over again?

What does life mean to you? If life was that important a gift, we wouldnt have let it go waste..as most of us are resorting. That includes me as well..mind you. The way you unwrap the gift MATTERS!!! Rushing up to unveil the gift would destroy the quintessential essence of the very gift. What we get at the end makes the whole thing worthwhile. Similarly at the end one would fall pray to death, but having made your ride worthwhile is what would give you calmness and serenity.

Death is certain, no one is immortal. We all are going to fall prey to the ultimate fiasco. What is disturbing is to loose yourself to the worldy things while you are still alive. What ever your desires are, whatever you dreams are..you need to make them happen in the short span that has been given the name of 'life'.

That's another question to ponder over whether all those desires, dreams were worth spending your life at. We'll get back to it sometime later. :)